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[APPOINTMENT POST] suit and tie

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[Touya rests his head on top of Yuki's and sighs heavily, closing his eyes and savoring the moment.]

You're not going to tell me one day out of the blue that we should break up?

I can't imagine a reason why I would ever want to do that.

[Yukito does the same for a moment, but then shifts slightly to brush his lips across Touya's throat, so temptingly close as it is.]

When I was dating Kaho I thought the same--that there wasn't a reason why we should break up. But then one day she just said I was meant for someone else and that we were done. [He plays idly with the hair at the back of Yuki's neck in response to the kiss.] I think she was talking about you. But you're tricky too, who knows what you'll say to me next. [He's teasing, mostly.]

Hm, so you were meant for me? I think I like that thought.

[He gives a light, involuntary shiver that extends to the tips of his wings, and laughs quietly.]

Sometimes I think you're as much a part of me as Yue-san is.

...I like the thought too. [He smiles softly, stroking the back of Yuki's head gently, almost reverently. The last time Touya had talked to Kaho, what she had said did suggest that Touya was where he was supposed to be. But so much weird stuff happened around Sakura, it worried him that maybe he wasn't done no matter how right he felt with Yuki.]

This last week, it felt like you both were a part of me too. Seeing what Yue was like before everything with Clow wasn't the same as when we were all living together. I was sad you weren't there, and I was sad that Yue was looking for something that would never appear. I felt a little sick all the time, like something was out of balance.

I'm especially glad to be back, then. It feels like... everything's right again.

[Even if they aren't at home, it still feels like home when Touya is there, and that's enough for him. Yukito falls silent for a moment as he considers, then a little hesitantly brings up a subject he'd never really brought up before.]

Touya? What about you and Yue-san?

[Touya blinks, feeling a little like he's been caught cheating or something akin to it. He pulls back a little so he can look at Yuki's face while they talk.]

What about me and Yue?

[Yukito smiles, lifting a hand to rest it gently against Touya's cheek.]

You feel like Yue-san is a part of you, too?

[Oh. Touya thought he was going to be asked a much harder question. It's still one he has to think about for a moment, but it's less difficult then say, asking if Touya liked being around Yue all the time.]

...Sometimes. And sometimes I feel like we're missing one another. As though we're in sync and then suddenly I don't know what he's thinking.

Hmm.

[He looks thoughtful for a moment, thumb brushing almost absently across Touya's cheekbone, then his smile suddenly quirks a little wider.]

That sounds about right, I think.

[Touya blinks--he's doing okay...? After a moment of prolonged surprise, Touya cocks an eyebrow.]

I'm not messing up when I push him?

Can I offer you advice? Is that really fair?

[From the way his head tilts a little, eyes not quite focusing on Touya, he's talking to more than one person at the same time. And then a moment later he laughs, the sound warm and fond and amused.]

Well. You did say it yourself, Touya, we're not that different. Are we?

Of course it's fair, it'd be unfair to ignore my request wouldn't it? [He crosses his arms huffily. He can see where Yuki's coming from, obviously, but sometimes he just didn't know where he and Yue stood. The past few weeks made it even more confusing.]

I know I said that, but... sometimes people say things on instinct and then later look back and think, 'What was I actually talking about back then? Did I even know what I was talking about?' Right?

I think that's only because you're second-guessing yourself. Your instincts have always been quite good, Touya.

Yeah, but my instincts were always good about people I spent a lot of time with. Like you and Sakura. And when Yue gets that sad, distant look in his eyes I don't know what I feel anymore. I feel like everything he's thinking happened way before I was even born and how could I understand that?

It was easy with you. [He gives Yuki a small smile.] We were both the weird kids. But Yue's not weird, I'm afraid of being the weird one.

You don't have to completely understand someone to love them. You just have to want to.

[He tilts his head slightly.] We're part of each other, Touya. You can't really separate us, not completely.

I don't want to separate you, not at all. [He looks a little panicked at that--perhaps Yuki touched a nerve fairly close to one of Touya's fears. But he doesn't let on about it.]

...I do love him. But I can't just throw that around without promising that when you or Yue are feeling down or low, that I can do something about it. Sometimes I don't know if I can do anything about what happened. Sometimes I feel like I'm trying to fight Clow and it's like beating my head against a wall.

[Though Yue had claimed to not be listening to the conversation, the strength of his silent reaction to Touya's statement makes Yukito blink in mild surprise, though the expression almost immediately turns into a gentle smile.]

Some things can't be changed overnight. But think about how much has changed in the last year. How much he's changed, for your sake.

I didn't think they'd change overnight, though sometimes I feel like I move forward a step and then the next day I'm back two. Or maybe that's just in my head. Things have changed--I see much more of him, for one thing. [He smiles and pulls Yuki back to him so he can put his chin on Yuki's head again. This was so comfortable.]

Maybe I'll get him to eat something I've cooked next year. [He chuckles.]

You're doing fine. If he disliked you I'm certain it would be very, very clear indeed.

[But now that he knows just how closely Yue really is listening, it's a little uncomfortable talking about his other self like he isn't there. So instead of continuing, Yukito takes on a plaintive tone to his voice.]

Speaking of eating something that you've cooked....

[Touya blinks--] O-oh, right. Sorry. [Touya puts the plates into the oven and puts the cucumber soup into a bowl.] Here, you can start with this while the rest of the food gets warm. [He takes the bowl over to the table and sets it down for Yuki, hurrying back to the drawers to get him a spoon.]

[It's a little disappointing to have to separate again after being so comfortable, but... food is still important. And there's plenty of time later to spend together, since it's not as though he had plans for the day.]

It looks wonderful. Thank you.

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